Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Weigh In #4

Well I managed another loss this week and, to be honest, it's nothing short of a miracle. I won't divulge the exact details of just how much rubbish I ate because I don't think it serves any purpose other than to make me feel guilty. And guilt over food is what got me in this mess in the first place.

Suffice to say I'm thrilled with my 1.5 pound loss and am hoping for a much bigger loss on the scales next Tuesday, seeing as I'm going to really try to stick to it this week. I say 'really try to' as I am going away for the weekend, to my old University town.... Nottingham! I'm so excited and I can't wait to see my old uni friends. We don't meet up half as much as we should, due to life being so busy for all of us, so it should be a good one. I'm not going until Friday evening so I'm hopeful I should be able to get a good loss in before then, to make up for any horrors that may occur over the weekend.

I could promise that I'm going to stick to it 100% while I'm there, but that would be a lie. And I don't want to lie about my weight anymore.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 173.5 pounds
Weight Loss: 1.5 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 53.5 pounds
Target Weight: 140 pounds

33.5 pounds to go!

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

Weigh In #3

Well, after saying I was going to have a completely 100% week, I did fall slightly off plan last weekend. Friday, Saturday and Sunday were a bit naughty, both alcohol and food wise. However, I obviously did enough on my four 100% days as I managed a four pound loss! That's my gain from last week gone in one fell swoop and I'm relieved.

To be honest, it's just nice to see the numbers going down again. Even though I'm still a lot heavier than I was, THE NUMBERS ARE GOING DOWN!

I don't have much to knock me off plan this week so I'm hoping for another good loss on the scales next Tuesday. I'm completely back in the Slimming World mindset and am finding pleasure in eating healthily again, with just small treats now and again. THAT'S exactly what has been missing for most of this year and I'm glad I seem to have found it again!

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 175 pounds
Weight Loss: 4 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 52 pounds
Target Weight: 140 pounds

35 pounds to go!

Friday, 23 September 2011

Getting my head back in the game!

I know. I know. Two posts in a week! Don't fall off your chairs in shock now will you.

So, after almost 9 months of the Slmming World game (give or take a few good weeks that were very few and very far between) I rejoined two weeks ago. Rejoine with good intentions but, sadly, a a distinct lack of willpower. It was like I'd... forgotten how to do it. I couldn't think of a single meal that I wanted to eat that didn't include takeaway, chips or cheese. Just cheese. Big blocks of cheese. Not 28g of the stuff.

So, for two weeks I carried on the way I had been going for the majority of this year. And that way was to the kebab shop/pizza delivery/crisp aisle. Until Monday. When I looked in the mirror after I got home from work and hated what I saw. And I mean really hated. To the extent that I cried my eyes out. I looked bloated, unwell, my skin was blotchy and dry, even my eyes looked dull and devoid of life. And I knew then that it was the junk that was making me feel this way.

I've always been an emotional eater. When life goes tits up, I reach for the crisps. Or the burgers. Or the fried chicken. Even though I know that it makes me feel awful afterwards, I still do it. How messed up is that?

So, I vowed to stop it. Just as I had in January last year. And I went back to my group on Tuesday, to be greeted with another 4 pound gain. But, to be honest, I'm lucky it wasn't so much more, with all the rubbish I've been eating. No Helen, two baguettes for lunch is not acceptable. Neither is two bags of crisps.

In a way I'm deeply ashamed that I slipped back into the old eating habits that I fought so hard to kick. I was right back there, complusively eating everything I could find, even though it was making me feel awful and I wasn't even enjoying it. It was eating for the sake of it. No, scratch that, it was bingeing. However, in another way, I'm glad it's given me a kick up the backside to get back to where I was this time last year. 100% Slimming World and happy and proud of myself.

Because since Tuesday I've been utterly, completely, 100% on plan. And I can't see it changing any time soon. Something in my head has shifted again and I'm so pleased. Now I think about syns, whereas before I'd just eat whatever I wanted. I think about new meals I can make and how to make them completely syn free. I'm enjoying eating healthily again, because I know how good it makes me feel.

It's so good to be back.

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

Weigh In #2

I didn't post my weigh in last week. Noone bullied me. Which is a good job as I didn't actually go to weigh in. Yep, for some reason after I posted that last post I decided I could just have one more day of eating rubbish. Which turned into another day. Which turned into two weeks.

Which means I gained another 4 pounds at weigh in yesterday.

Ordinarily I'd be ashamed to do this post but this time I'm really not. I gained. So what? I won't next week. Or the week after that. Or the many weeks after that.

Positive thinking and belief is key. If I don't believe that I can do this then I can't.

So I choose to believe that I can.

Here's to a MASSIVE weight loss next Tuesday.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 179 pounds
Weight Gain: 4 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 48 pounds
Target Weight: 140 pounds

39 pounds to go!

Friday, 9 September 2011

Weigh In #1

Oops. Just 3 months late then, Helen.

I've not got a lot to say, to be honest. This year has been monumentally awful in many respects but I just want to draw a line under it now and start again. Hence the fact my weigh in number in the post title has been re-set to 1.

There is more on my regular blog about what's been happening but not too much detail. That's just for me and a couple of my closest friends.

I weighed in on Tuesday and I've gained 22 pounds since last December.

Thats over a stone and a half.

To say I'm disappointed in myself would be to belittle my feelings on the matter. So I won't say anything. Other than that I'm back. And this time I'm doing it. Feel free to bully me if I don't post my weigh in each and every week. Please.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 175 pounds
Weight Gain: 22 pounds (since my lowest weight of 153 pounds)
Total Weight Loss: 52 pounds
Target Weight: 140 pounds

35 pounds to go!

Thursday, 9 June 2011

The One Where I Come Clean

Well. Here we are.

It's been three months since my last post and, erm, there's no excuse really. Other than I've been struggling. But even that's not an entirely accurate excuse. I've had good weeks and bad weeks. Good days and bad days. Good hours and bad hours.

I just don't seem to have the same iron willpower that I had last year. Maybe it's because I'm fairly happy with how I look? Maybe it's because the weight just doesn't seem to fall off like it used to? Who knows.

I am on plan at the moment but, if I'm honest, it's not 100%. There are syns here and there that I don't count. There are bad decisions I make that I never would have made last year. If wine is on offer, I'll have it, rather than asking for a gin and slimline tonic. If I order a burger, I'll eat the bun. I never would have done that last year.

So, I guess what I'm trying to say is... I'm still here. Still trying. Just not succeeding like I was last year.

The last weight I posted here was 159 pounds. I'm currently 160 pounds. So I guess, if nothing else, I've done a STERLING job of maintaining my weight. That at least gives me hope that, when I finally hit target, I should be able to stay there, with the odd fluctuation now and again.

I am going to start posting again weekly, whether it's good or bad news. I've realised that it's about the long game, not instant results. It's a marathon, not a sprint, and I will see it through to the end. Whether that end is in a few weeks, a few months or a year.

Sunday, 6 March 2011

Weigh Ins #43 & #44

The less said about Weigh In #43 the better. I went off plan for 5 weeks and, by the time I dragged myself back to group, I'd gained 11.5 pounds. That took me back into the 160s and I was not a happy bunny. Not at all.

A week back on plan and this was the result last Tuesday... 6.5 pounds off! My biggest ever loss and I really really needed it. 2011 has been a very tough year so far and, unfortunately, my weight is always the first thing to suffer when I'm stressed out. Things seem to be looking up now though, so hopefully I might actually get to target this time!

In the mean time, here's a picture of me at my heaviest weight. This was actually taken in 2006, but I was the same weight then as I was when I started at Slimming World in January last year. I keep this picture on the desktop of my computer and look at it whenever I'm feeling down about my weight, to show myself how far I've come.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 159 pounds
Weight LossThis Week: 6.5 pounds 
Total Weight Loss: 68 pounds
Target Weight: 147 pounds

12 pounds to go!

Tuesday, 18 January 2011

Weigh In #42

I am so so chuffed with my loss this week. I have to admit that I haven't stuck to plan 100%. Mainly due to being very very poor (I last got paid in mid December and am not getting paid again until next week), going out drinking too much and having two Nando's in one day. Oops. Still, I obviously did enough and now I'm only one pound away from my lowest weight! One more pound and I'm back to my pre Christmas weight. Praise be! I also got Slimmer of the Week, which was lovely.

Usually I stick to plan 100% and never ever cheat. This last week was an exception and I've got away with it. I won't be repeating the cheating this week coming, as that's the road to disaster!

I've had a few emails from people asking me to post another typical Slimming World day for me. I'll hopefully get round to doing that tomorrow. If there's anything else that you'd like to see, then drop me an email or a comment and I'll do my best.

This week is my one year anniversary with Slimming World. What a year it's been! I'm dying to get to target now and hopefully I should be there within the next month. How exciting! Then the fun can really begin...

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 154 pounds
Weight LossThis Week: 4.5 pounds 
Total Weight Loss: 73 pounds
Target Weight: 147 pounds

7 pounds to go!

Thursday, 13 January 2011

Weigh In #41

Just under half of my Christmas gain was banished this week. I know five pounds is a very good loss but, to be honest, I was a bit disappointed. Normally if I gain a lot of weight quickly, I can lose it in a week or so. Not this time it seems.

It's my one year anniversary at Slimming World next week and I'm extremely frustrated that I haven't hit target yet. Originally I wanted to hit it by my birthday (November), then by Christmas and then by my first anniversary. Alas it wasn't to be.

I bought a 6 week countdown this week and I want that to be the last time I ever have to pay for group.

Fingers crossed.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 158.5 pounds
Weight LossThis Week: 5 pounds 
Total Weight Loss: 68.5 pounds
Target Weight: 147 pounds

11.5 pounds to go!

Saturday, 8 January 2011

Weigh In #40

This is the post I've been dreading writing. I knew I'd gained a lot over Christmas but getting on the scales was still a bit of a shock last Tuesday. A gain of 10.5 pounds. UGH.

To break it down a little bit though, that wasn't all in one week. I hadn't been weighed for three weeks due to various commitments and reasons. So, looking at it like that, I suppose I can call it a gain of 3.5 pounds per week for three weeks. Still not great though, is it?

On Tuesday I was pretty gutted. I got home, sat on my sofa and had a little cry. I was angry, frustrated and so disappointed in myself. I was back to the same weight that I was before I went to New York in September. Three and a half months of weight loss negated by three weeks of stuffing my face with mince pies, roast potatoes and festive snacks. Now though, I've accepted and I'm fine. I know that the weight will come off again and I know that I will hit my target within the next couple of months.

If anything, it's just given me a wake up call and shown me that I can never go back to the way I used to eat. I felt horrible by the time New Year's Day rolled around. Fat, bloated and lethargic. Which was the way I used to feel ALL the time. I never want to feel like that again.

So, I may have 16.5 pounds to go now, rather than 6, but I will get there.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 163.5 pounds
Weight Loss Gain This Week: 10.5 pounds 
Total Weight Loss: 63.5 pounds
Target Weight: 147 pounds

16.5 pounds to go!

Monday, 3 January 2011

Happy New Year!

Hello my slimming lovelies!

Yes, it is me. I'm back. It's been a while I know but I fell unceremoniously off the wagon shortly before Christmas and made the decision to just put my slimming on hold until the new year. Which is now here and, as promised to myself, I've been duly back on plan since I woke up yesterday morning.I was actually craving fruit and vegetables and I feel really good, even though it's only been a couple of days. Amazing how much my body has changed, I actually felt like it was crying out for healthy food!

I thoroughly enjoyed my Christmas completely off plan and I don't regret a single mouthful. I ate whatever I wanted for about ten days and it was glorious. I've probably gained about a stone but, you know what, I really don't mind. I know that, now I'm back on plan, the weight will fall back off and I'm still hopeful that I'll hit my target before my one year anniversary (19th January). But, if I don't, it's not the end of the world and I'll get there eventually.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas (if you celebrate it) and that 2011 will be fantastic for all of you! xx