Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Weigh In #4

Well I managed another loss this week and, to be honest, it's nothing short of a miracle. I won't divulge the exact details of just how much rubbish I ate because I don't think it serves any purpose other than to make me feel guilty. And guilt over food is what got me in this mess in the first place.

Suffice to say I'm thrilled with my 1.5 pound loss and am hoping for a much bigger loss on the scales next Tuesday, seeing as I'm going to really try to stick to it this week. I say 'really try to' as I am going away for the weekend, to my old University town.... Nottingham! I'm so excited and I can't wait to see my old uni friends. We don't meet up half as much as we should, due to life being so busy for all of us, so it should be a good one. I'm not going until Friday evening so I'm hopeful I should be able to get a good loss in before then, to make up for any horrors that may occur over the weekend.

I could promise that I'm going to stick to it 100% while I'm there, but that would be a lie. And I don't want to lie about my weight anymore.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 173.5 pounds
Weight Loss: 1.5 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 53.5 pounds
Target Weight: 140 pounds

33.5 pounds to go!

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

Weigh In #3

Well, after saying I was going to have a completely 100% week, I did fall slightly off plan last weekend. Friday, Saturday and Sunday were a bit naughty, both alcohol and food wise. However, I obviously did enough on my four 100% days as I managed a four pound loss! That's my gain from last week gone in one fell swoop and I'm relieved.

To be honest, it's just nice to see the numbers going down again. Even though I'm still a lot heavier than I was, THE NUMBERS ARE GOING DOWN!

I don't have much to knock me off plan this week so I'm hoping for another good loss on the scales next Tuesday. I'm completely back in the Slimming World mindset and am finding pleasure in eating healthily again, with just small treats now and again. THAT'S exactly what has been missing for most of this year and I'm glad I seem to have found it again!

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 175 pounds
Weight Loss: 4 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 52 pounds
Target Weight: 140 pounds

35 pounds to go!

Friday, 23 September 2011

Getting my head back in the game!

I know. I know. Two posts in a week! Don't fall off your chairs in shock now will you.

So, after almost 9 months of the Slmming World game (give or take a few good weeks that were very few and very far between) I rejoined two weeks ago. Rejoine with good intentions but, sadly, a a distinct lack of willpower. It was like I'd... forgotten how to do it. I couldn't think of a single meal that I wanted to eat that didn't include takeaway, chips or cheese. Just cheese. Big blocks of cheese. Not 28g of the stuff.

So, for two weeks I carried on the way I had been going for the majority of this year. And that way was to the kebab shop/pizza delivery/crisp aisle. Until Monday. When I looked in the mirror after I got home from work and hated what I saw. And I mean really hated. To the extent that I cried my eyes out. I looked bloated, unwell, my skin was blotchy and dry, even my eyes looked dull and devoid of life. And I knew then that it was the junk that was making me feel this way.

I've always been an emotional eater. When life goes tits up, I reach for the crisps. Or the burgers. Or the fried chicken. Even though I know that it makes me feel awful afterwards, I still do it. How messed up is that?

So, I vowed to stop it. Just as I had in January last year. And I went back to my group on Tuesday, to be greeted with another 4 pound gain. But, to be honest, I'm lucky it wasn't so much more, with all the rubbish I've been eating. No Helen, two baguettes for lunch is not acceptable. Neither is two bags of crisps.

In a way I'm deeply ashamed that I slipped back into the old eating habits that I fought so hard to kick. I was right back there, complusively eating everything I could find, even though it was making me feel awful and I wasn't even enjoying it. It was eating for the sake of it. No, scratch that, it was bingeing. However, in another way, I'm glad it's given me a kick up the backside to get back to where I was this time last year. 100% Slimming World and happy and proud of myself.

Because since Tuesday I've been utterly, completely, 100% on plan. And I can't see it changing any time soon. Something in my head has shifted again and I'm so pleased. Now I think about syns, whereas before I'd just eat whatever I wanted. I think about new meals I can make and how to make them completely syn free. I'm enjoying eating healthily again, because I know how good it makes me feel.

It's so good to be back.

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

Weigh In #2

I didn't post my weigh in last week. Noone bullied me. Which is a good job as I didn't actually go to weigh in. Yep, for some reason after I posted that last post I decided I could just have one more day of eating rubbish. Which turned into another day. Which turned into two weeks.

Which means I gained another 4 pounds at weigh in yesterday.

Ordinarily I'd be ashamed to do this post but this time I'm really not. I gained. So what? I won't next week. Or the week after that. Or the many weeks after that.

Positive thinking and belief is key. If I don't believe that I can do this then I can't.

So I choose to believe that I can.

Here's to a MASSIVE weight loss next Tuesday.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 179 pounds
Weight Gain: 4 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 48 pounds
Target Weight: 140 pounds

39 pounds to go!

Friday, 9 September 2011

Weigh In #1

Oops. Just 3 months late then, Helen.

I've not got a lot to say, to be honest. This year has been monumentally awful in many respects but I just want to draw a line under it now and start again. Hence the fact my weigh in number in the post title has been re-set to 1.

There is more on my regular blog about what's been happening but not too much detail. That's just for me and a couple of my closest friends.

I weighed in on Tuesday and I've gained 22 pounds since last December.

Thats over a stone and a half.

To say I'm disappointed in myself would be to belittle my feelings on the matter. So I won't say anything. Other than that I'm back. And this time I'm doing it. Feel free to bully me if I don't post my weigh in each and every week. Please.

Starting Weight: 227 pounds
Current Weight: 175 pounds
Weight Gain: 22 pounds (since my lowest weight of 153 pounds)
Total Weight Loss: 52 pounds
Target Weight: 140 pounds

35 pounds to go!