Monday, 19 July 2010

Struggle


I don't like to admit this but, seeing as this blog is supposed to be brutally honest, I'm struggling.

Really struggling.

Since I went to Glastonbury (four weeks ago) I've only lost two pounds. And I gained one of those back this weekend. So one pound lost in four weeks. I could have been another half stone lighter if I'd just stuck to plan 100%. But I haven't. And I'm so angry with myself.

I've had way too many treats. I've had chocolate. Ice cream. Crisps. All things that I shouldn't be eating. I was doing so well a few weeks ago and now I'm just so annoyed with myself. And frustrated. Losing this weight is the most important thing to me at the moment and I've just been playing at it. I need to get serious again and get serious fast.

When you lovely people leave me nice comments and say I'm inspirational I feel like a fraud. I refuse to let myself go back to the way I was. So as of now I'm back on plan. I'm writing it down here so that I'm accountable for it.

4 comments:

Amy said...

I'm struggling too, and I've only been doing it four weeks. Console yourself in that you are clearly doing MUCH better than me - I have spent this weekend pigging out.

Just think of all the weight you've lost. Would finding some yummy new recipes maybe help? So that you're eating lush things but not feeling like you're missing out?

If I can ever help with anything, just let me know.

ls2008 said...

the reason you're inspirational (and you are!!) is the amazing stats that you put at the bottom of your weigh-ins, losing 47lbs is no mean feat!

We all struggle, I struggled in my first few weeks, and to be honest at least once a week I have a struggling day. I am just v brutal and honest with myself - I took on this challenge to achieve something, and I am fed up with failing!! So this may be a struggle at the moment, but it will be easier, and imagine how fab you'll feel when you achieve your goal.

Keep your head up lovely, you'll be back on track in no time.

P said...

You are not a fraud at all - think how far you've come and how much you have accomplished in your weight loss. I think it's amazing!

And it's only natural that you fall off the wagon every once in a while. If you didn't ... then that would be weird. You know how important it is to you and you will pick yourself back up, get back on it and the weight will be dropping off in no time once again.

I should be a motivational speaker, shouldn't I ...? ;)

Helen said...

Amy - Thankyou. I'm feeling loads better now. Much more positive. I think I just expected to have lost a lot more by this time. I once lost 3 stone in 3 months but that wasn't done in a healthy way and I think I need to stop harping back to it! x

ls2008 - Thankyou! I just haven't really struggled with it until now. So it was a bit of a shock. I'm back on track now and gunning for those losses! x

P - Yes, you really should! Thanks hon xx